Oh Farmgirl, try and stay positive
It is so hard I too imagine that I can feel AF but then think my mind is playing tricks on me.
This is not the end of the road for any of us, WE WILL hold that and for some it just might take us a little longer BUT IT WILL HAPPEN!!!
TTC is so hard on your emotions you doubt so many things but one thing is for sure when we each do have that baby all this BS will be worth it and we will be great mums because of it.

Dusty, glad u like the thread name change.
Always thinking of you and your BFP is only around the corner