I hear you! It's bizarre to think we just paid $5000 out of pocket for this 'fantastic' experience...I know it's terrible to think about the money but it's the reality of it all...at least if we do another cycle this year the medicare rebate will kick in...can't believe I'm even thinking about it...one thing I have been thinking about..is next time I'm not doing all these bloods once I'm pregnant...I found watching the levels doubling really stressful...they can do the tests I just don't need to know the results every 3 days...drove me nuts...I'd rather take it easy till 7 weeks and then a scan to check for ectopic...ahhh..getting so far ahead of myself...just have all this stuff going through me head about how I'd do things differently next time...and I will not be working that's for sure!!! The stress of that joint is not helpful! My FS has offered to write a letter to my boss which I thought was really nice...I'll be getting him to do that to attach to my 'leave without pay' application for next year...now I'm just dribbbling...have been getting lots of cramps this morning...keep going to the loo expecting it all to have started but nothing yet...anyways...better have a shower and get the day started ...it is 9.30...oh well...talk later xxx