Huge hugs to you sweety. Im so sorry you are going through such a terrible time. I can feel the pain in your post and I understand that at this very moment you want to give up, and its ok to think that right now if it helps. It doesnt mean you'll feel that way tomorrow or in a month, or in a year, but for right now its ok. I totally get what you are saying about everyone else being pg and wondering why you never got a turn. Its so unfair. I hope that talking to BG allows you to release some of that deep hurt thats inside you.