Thanks originalP - it helps to know that someone understands...

Draining is the best way to describe it - i feel totally run down to the ground and also very alone. I am thinking one month on then one month off is the better way to do this, but I keep hoping that every month is my last.... And after trying for so long, I feel one month off is wasting time (patience is not my virtue).

Thanks for your tips - I will look into Neuro Calm as suggested. This will not affect any other medications such as the fsh or the pregnl? Is it herbal like St Johns Wart?? You mentioned that you stop the pregnl when you are sure implanation has not occured - how can you be sure? Does you clinic have a way of testing this before your pregnancy test is due?

How are you going sunnycoastgirl? Im sorry if you have updated in another section and am making you repeat yourself....Im finding it hard to keep up with the other ttc thread with so much activity!!