Leasha - I totally understand what you are going through. Honestly the Clomid could be causing you to have these thoughts and mood changes, thats what my OB/GYNO said to me on Tuesday thats why shes hesitant to put me back on them. I too have PCOS. I have PND/anxiety and mild OCD...and am seeing a therapist who has been wonderful with behavioural therapy which includes breathing techniques when anxious and relaxation CD's etc, which is really good if you dont feel like you want to take anti-depressants. I do both at the moment. Im on Ciprimil which is ok during pregnancy apparently and ok if taking Clomid. Yes I do worry about it getting pregnant and not being able to cope, my OB said taking the Ciprimil will be ok in first and 2nd Trimester but im not sure I want to. If you want to discuss in more detail happy to chat to you via pm or email...its taken me 6 months from saying I dont want another child because I dont want to go through the depression again to wanting to try again which is a good sign for us that im slowly on the mend hopefully.