Ktgirl,
I'm so sorry your b/t didn't go so well. I totally understand how you feel -- I also bust into tears when I didn't ovulate on my first cycle of clomid. I agree - this whole process is incredibly emotionally tolling! But, you know, you might not get your BFP tomorrow, but I'm sure it's just around the corner, and you'll get it before you know it! In the meantime, try to forget about it as much as possible and enjoy the holidays. I'm trying my best to do that myself!