Hi everyone,
I just wanted to pop in and let you know I am still in the "land of the living". I have had probably the worst few days of my life. .. I am not going to explain right now but it's been a harrowing time.
Butterfly - I usually ovulate on cd16-17. On clomid I ovulated on cd21. DON'T GIVE UP!!!!Clomid can do some funny things to your body - it does happen that 5omgs isn't enough to stimulate ovulation and having PCOS increases this liklihood (but doesn't by any stretch make it a done deal). However it is best to begin on 50 and increase the next cycle if the 50mgs doesn't do it's job. This is because the higher the dose the higher the chance of hyperstimulation and multiples. I send you a big hug Sweetheart. You are going to get there - and soon your hubby's "weapons" will be in fine form to increase the chances!!!!

Debbie - You are such a beautiful woman. Thankyou so much for your kindness. I know you understand and I can feel that you feel. That is so special. We are in a world that runs from death and someone like me is a bit too difficult sometimes. When I am pregnant now no one ever asks how I am just in case "it's happened again". At least in here I feel comfy. Tell me how your ttc journey is coming along? I am thinking of you and praying that sperm meets egg...

Michelle 71- Thankyou Michelle for your kindness - I will contact you. As I explained it's been utterly harrowing for me these past days and I need somewhere to put my feelings. I am off to see a hypnotherapist tomorrow - she is actually a hypnobirthing guru but I need some help with the fear and now the anger with what has happened to my babies. She will be able to work with me during another pregnancy as well. I thought I would see how it goes. She comes with rave reviews from colleagues so off we go! Did I read that your u/s is Thursday? Michelle just believe that this little bean (or beans??? - those hcg levels are looking quite wonderful!!!) is healthy and strong and that you will take this baby home live and healthy in your arms. Choose to believe and choose to be positive. I know my outcome wasn't good but even though I have no longer got my little Eggbert she/he was loved and I felt good and I largely enjoyed growing her/him. I feel like I "knew" her/him and I can smile on the memories of the pregnancy as opposed to the previous pregnancy where I only remember utter torture.
Will you begin Clexane after the u/s? I am thinking of you and I have been popping in to hear your news even though I haven't felt up to posting... I am sending you all my love, strength and support... :hugs:

Danni - Your post touched me. Thankyou so much for thinking of me - it was very kind.

Willow - How are things for you Sweetie? I know it's been a rough ride.

Chelle - Thankyou so much for your kind thoughts and support. How are you?

I know I have missed people and I am sorry for that. I will come back in again soon and in time I will be back in the "swing".

to you all...