Michelle, I can only imagine how scary this must be for you. I'm sure everything will seem much better tomorrow when your DH returns home and you get lovely big high numbers on your blood test! Feel free to post and cry and lean on us, we aren't going to stop supporting you just because you managed to see that wondrous double line on a pregnancy test! In fact... it's starting to seem to me that that's when the real support is needed.

I'm a little worried that AF won't show tomorrow... there's just the faintest of faint pink tinges to my CM... last time I had this I was convinced that AF was going to arrive the next day... and now I'm over a week and a course of provera later and I'm still waiting. I saw my rheumatologist today (after forgetting about the appointment and luckily finding the appointment card an hour before hand!), and he nearly had me collapsing in tears in his office. The first question he asks me every visit is "Are you pregnant yet?" And it seems we talk more about my fertility woes than about my arthritis these days... I've been lectured about my desire to have a name for my arthritic condition (I had to laugh when he said he could call it Zimbagers disease if I wanted him to, but it wouldn't change they way we manage it one bit, and that after four years he's pretty certain that it's not going to progress into some sort of joint-destroying form of arthritis, so I guess I'm pretty lucky), and he's got me half convinced not to change gynecologists... but I'll go along and chat to my GP about all of it again on Thursday. my GP should have the results of the blood tests my rheumy ordered then - will be nice to know if my liver is still holding up as well as it was last time! I'm just babbling!

Willow, a final reminder to you to THINK POSITIVE!! We can beat this!

BW