Does anyone else feel that way? I had to get back to full time work last September, Matthew was 18 months old then, DH also works full time and my MIL looks after Matthew.

I hate it. I hate being away from Matthew, I dread going into work everyday and often cry in the shower in the mornings because I am going into work. At first I thought it was my supervisors and job I was doing. Luckily I got to change that recently but have come to the realisation that it is just being away from Matthew that I hate. I could be out there earning lots of $$$$ and I know I would still hate it. Financially I need to work but DH and I are trying to sort something out so I can stay at home. There seems to be no answer at the moment, as my business isn't taking off... but realistically it wasn't a multi million dollar venture. And there are TTC #2 thoughts in our heads but I seriously do not want to even try before we have worked a solution out.

I really miss my little man, I used to complain about being part-time but that wasn't as bad. I hate not being the big part of his life and the one exploring and playing with him every day. Working full time just sucks, it also meant me giving up moderating this lovely forum and I never ever see my friends either.

I don't mean to scare any newly pregnant mums out there or those who are on mat leave and intending on going back. I am just sharing my thoughts and wondered if anyone feels the same and if you have any solutions of how I can get through it.

I know this isn't as bad as some of you have it, I know others have it worse than me, but it is just so hard.