Deb - thanks for you words of support, all those that work every now and then would know how it is too, the cost of living seems too high to me.

Gemma - thanks so much for your story, you guys sound so organised. I am at work myself at 7.30 and I leave at 4 - 4.30 for the same reason as you. DH and I have often thought of a sea change. Deb if you are reading this is the cost of living different? I might ask that somewhere else too.....

Sam - thanks and poppet, thanks for sharing your story. I am rapt that you guys manage.

nickel - what a wonderful idea! MIL helped Matty does us a Christmas card which was gorgeous and he does love it there. She gets some of his cousins there every now and then which is great for him. She always has time for him just to play iykwim so I always try to take comfort in that. My g/f also told me that this is one more step towards being able to be home f/t with him eventually which is right.

Lucy - thanks hun. I am registered on SEEK and this may sound selfish but when I do go on Mat Leave again eventually I get 14 weeks paid leave which I can take at hlaf pay and LSL as well, so it is worth me sticking it out I have just realised!

Thanks so much everyone, I do appreciate your thoughts and support.