I am really struggling with the thought of going back to work full time. I have been looking for something part time for the last 3 months and there is nothing at all around. I haven't even found anything to apply for. It is now getting to the point where I need to work for financial reasons and full time is the only option left. I never intended to go back full time until my kids were quite a bit older (they are 3.5 and 11mths) and I just can't get my head around it. The thought of being away from my kids for 50 hours each week and only seeing them for an hour or two on week nights is just not something I'm ready for. I'm also not ready for leaving them in full time day care (which will take more than half of my full time wage!) It just seems like such a huge sacrifice for little financial gain. But, we're really struggling financially at the moment and I can't see another way.
How did you cope going back to work full time? Is it possibly not as bad as I am imagining or will I be completely miserable?