I'm going back on 2 days (hopefully) to a job I fought tooth and nail to do. And I normally love the job itself. I love the people I spend 90% of my time with.
But I'm not looking forward to the niggly extras, the people who make meetings last twice as long as they need to, the judgement, the never being allowed to have an off minute... I don't want to leave my baby to be nagged at and treated worse than we'd treat a child in our care. Just for ten minutes a month, from a superior, but that's what breaks me. At least said superior has left now, not a nice way of thinking of it, but there it is.
As well as fatigue, having to cram in housework and parenting on your work days, wanting to be with your children... could there be one person with a pull down mentality that you see sometimes?
I think your right and its just me been burnt out and the exhaustion. I guess I will have to consider going on annual leave for a while or going on maternity leave early. I don't even know how early you can take it. It is possible for me to reduce my hours to 6hrs a day instead of the 8 but then I still have the same cost of childcare and the extra 4hours a week is worth a few hundred dollars a pay (fortnightly) so it is quiet a bit to loose.
I have also come to the relization that I will have to return to work when this baby is 6weeks old. I have not broke the news to DH yet. Everything seems so hard at the moment.
Ca Plane the lady I work with closely is lovely but is quiet demanding of my time. I think she isn't helping. The good news is we have another member joining out team soon so I won't be the only sound board for the other woman. Don't get me wrong she is lovely but quiet a dominant personality and likes to dictate what I do despite my workload been twice as busy as her own. This new team member however has no experience and this will be her first job in our field. She is also disadvantaged as she is not a midwife (only RN). She will need alot of orientation and I guess by the time she is ready to work on her own I will be leaving. In saying this I am really looking forward to meeting her. My other team member is considerably older then I am and her lifestyle is very different. The new person starting is younger with a young family and I am just hoping we get along well. Atleast thats something to look forward too.
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