christy, exactly!!!!!!!!!!!! SO TRUE!!

It's ok sushee you can go of topic! Thanks for pointing out what a strong mil you have!

My doc told me to talk about it as its unhealthy to let it eat at me. Shoudn't bottle up all my emotions I guess, if I am worried then I am worried and have plenty of support so why not use it. I am not going to be a martye just so I don't upset my family. This is a journey we are all taking so they need to hear me talk about it. Thanks girls who have said talk about it, you right its a lot healthier to get my feelings out than hold it all in just to save my hubbies feelings. Its me goin through this scare more so than him. So we will talk tonight him and I!

I sat here feeling so bad for sharing and there were some words that made me think I am being weak talking about it, but after a long hard think about it, I should not feel guilt for wanting to let my family in, they need to see I am only human and do suffer and have emotions too. I don't ask of them for anything, just to listen. I don't think I am asking for to much.