Storm and Maz !
That's exactly how I feel! You just described it in a nutshell.
I am thinking about going back to the doctor who delivered the babies, he was very kind. If I promise him NOT to get pg straight away, he might consider it.
Then of course, if there was a pregnancy we would have to put up with all the judgements from everyone who thinks that pregnancy for us is dangerous/stupid/not well thought out.

Thank you so much