Righto last night I had the most weirdest dream which has left me this morning feeling sick and uneasy, for what reason I don't know. I have never felt this way before after having a dream and I am prone to have quite vivid ones.

Perhaps someone can help me and interpret it for me?

A bit of background info first. I have been married to DH for 11 years, and with him for 13. Love him to death, in my mind there is no other. BUT prior to him there was another gentleman, lets call him A, who I had an ongoing flirtation with. We had been good friends since highschool and there was always serious chemistry between us but it was never the right time - one of us was always dating someone else or overseas.

When I met DH it got pretty intense pretty quickly and we became engaged after a year. "A" found out we were engaged and I saw him soon after at a nightclub. He was drinking quickly and heavily and all night kept coming over to me. DH knew him but did't know the extent of our history together. At one point I was in one area talking to some friends when "A" came over, almost crying. His friends are trying to hold him back as he tells me not to marry DH marry him instead. He proceeds to get down on his knees in the middle of the club and ask me, all very dramatic. His friends pull him up and away and I was very upset at the time - why did he wait till then? DH never knew about this.

Fast forward to now. Over the years we have remained friends and shared some great experiences. There have been some uncomfortable times and some lovely ones - he was the first one the hospital after DD1 was born! (Happened to be in the area and was so excited). He is now engaged to be married and the wedding is this weekend to which we are invited.

Well PHEW if you managed to get through all of that!!! Now to last night's dream...

I dream't I was invited to "A's" bucks night and was the only girl there. People in my dream were telling me that I had been invited to keep an eye on him and make sure he was ok. The dream went through a lot of typical bucks night scenario's, drinks out, back to his parent's house (where I was made to feel very welcome, like one of the family) for a traditional European celebration...in the dream there was lots of raucous behaviour at his parent's house. I was being pulled into the behaviour, drinking, laughing etc all the time helping "A" and physically touching him eg holding him, cuddling him etc. The dream ended with him at the church and me being the bride instead of his fiancee.

So what is this telling me? That we still have unfinished business? I am so confused and upset by this.

Thanks for listening if you got this far.