Trish - Thanks for you point of view. Firstly DH and I recently decided that 3 is enough despite both of us wanting a son. We had decided that we are blessed and to move on. The decision has not come easy but we kinda know that enough is enough for us. Onwards and upwards!! I've finally decided on a career/study course and I am getting myself back into shape. I think you have a very valid point about the desire pulling me back

On the other hand I have had dreams about being babies with all 3 of my girls.

I've also been to 2 clairvoyance in the last 6 months and both told me that there would be no more babies.."unless I wanted" one, but both stressed that they personally didn't 'see" anymore

I my subconscience is playing tricks on me