OH Teagan honey, I am sooooo sorry. It is not fair that any of us have to go through this. I wish I could give you the biggest hug.

You haven't done anything wrong, and please don't blame yourself. Of course you are normal, you are just still in shock, when something that you have craved for is taken from you, you don't have to have text book reaction, you just have to do what comes to you. If you can't cry yet, then don't try to force yourself, it will come when your ready to let go.

You do have support, we are all here for you, and please use us to lean on. While not all of us can be physically with you, we are all here for you on BB. I don't know how I would have coped without the girls here.

As lavender said, take lily for a walk, and look out at the ocean, you might just feel better. Don't feel guilty about looking at Lily and hurting, you wanted this for her as well. Embrace the fact that you have lily and hug her and kiss her, it might help you to feel a little better. Don't feel guilty if it hurts to see others that are pg, or with newborns, it is all natural. Everything that you feel is natural for you.

Please feel free to lean on me for support... it's hard and I know that you don't want everyone telling you taht it will all be ok, but please know that it will be, you will be fine, and you will have another baby oneday.

Love and hugs

Melissa