This year is really turning out to be a winner...not! Just found out today that the project I was hoping would get up at work, hasn't, and that I'm officially out of work as of 27th February. They say bad things come in 3s...starting to wonder what March will bring
Went back to see our FS for the first time since our MC yesterday. We've decided to have another go (hard not to given how far we got last time) but...it still feels so raw. I'm scared to try again. Even just DTD again after our loss was v. emotional - much more than I thought it would be.
Just finding this all v. tough. Glad I can come here and share 'cause honestly, it feels like the safest place - thanks
Alice x
Last edited by Alice; February 10th, 2010 at 08:19 PM.
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Alice, i'm so sorry you are going thru this. BIG HUGS for you. It is a very emotional time and don't feel bad about being emotional when dtd as it is a BIG decision to make to ttc again after a loss.
I remember after my first m/c in 2005, I wanted to try again straightaway too.
Alice I'm so sorry for all you are going through atm I was so scared to ttc after our loss, I made excuses for months and months because I was just so afraid of it all happening again and going through all that heartache again. It's a slow healing process and I hope and pray that you're holding a bub in your arms soon
oh Alice maybe we can be each others support person! I know the feeling 'what will march bring'... In january I had to have a huge whole cut out of my chest wall for a skin cancer, had to go thru all that pain & recovery. Then just as I am feeling better and almost a month to the date I am in hospital again with an ectopic pregnancy! So unfair and far too much for someone to have to deal with. I think ill go bankers if something else happens.
So yes I understand how emotional you must be feeling and how scared and tired you must feel at the thought of going thru all that again. But we must find the strength somewhere, the reward at the end really is worth the pain and suffering. Ill be there for you if you would like, pm me if you want my mobile number! I went to school in the blue mountains and my inlaws still live in springwood.
Please also keep writing in here, BB helps so much.
Take care - Milly
Snuggly, Chepe, MiniM, Tanya, Sirenz, HBean and Tegam - thank you for your support and hugs - means a lot to me atm.
Oh Milly, that's tough I hope you can rest up and get your strength and courage back - it is tiring, physically and mentally, especially having to 're-group' after each blow with no space in between. It's like being dumped in the sea and having all your breath knocked out of you with no time to get it back before the next one hits. Big hugs to you and thank you for your offers of support xx
...don't know what to do about the work thing. I think I need some time off to think about what next. Hopefully something good will come up soon.
My worst fear about TTC again is that we won't even get a BFP - felt like such a miracle after nearly nine years to get the one we got that I wonder if I'm asking too much to hope for that again... One step at a time I guess.
I'm seeing the GP at the Women's Health Centre tomorrow so that couldn't be better timing really as I feel like I've hit rock bottom again.
Reply With QuoteEither one of those things would be awful on its own. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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I hope you can rest up and get your strength and courage back - it is tiring, physically and mentally, especially having to 're-group' after each blow with no space in between. It's like being dumped in the sea and having all your breath knocked out of you with no time to get it back before the next one hits. Big hugs to you and thank you for your offers of support xx
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