Hey Nae Nae,

I cannot offer you any words from experience. Christmas to many is a special time of year. To you it still also can be. You have been through alot this year.. some happy moments and some sad. I would just take Christmas one step at a time and in a way just celebrate what you have acheived this year. Even though Nikita is not with you in person, i know she will be with you in spirit on Christmas Day, and im sure she would still love to be celebrated.

Maybe even just make it a special one for you and your DH. One that you can maybe just rejoice together. Light a candle for you both and one for your little angel.
Big Take care hun.