Oh hun i am so sorry that you are in so much pain! There is no right answers here and i am sorry to say but it seems the norm for people in real life to not consider things from the mothers point of view. You lost a child, a dream, a future with it! Of course the next few weeks are going to be horrible and made all the worse by all the people due around you. You would also feel guilty for feeling so lost when you 'should' feel happy for them! All i can say is that you need to just let yourself feel whatever you need to and greive! its a very long process sadly and one that i wish we could make quicker for you!

Please use BB as much as you need to!
Exactly what Tegam said!!!
You have every right to grieve your child.... especially with the due date approaching. I lost my first baby at 10 weeks & my due date was Australia Day 2004, it was very hard but at least for me it has gotten easier over the years. You will never forget your child, s/he will be with you forever
Do what YOU want to do, dont let anyone talk you out of it... you may live to regret letting someone else take that away from you.
Look after yourself xxx