tanya - your pain at the moment is still very real, and unconsciously you're still searching for answers. this is probably coming through in your dreams. you know there is supposed to be a baby, and when you hear sounds your head knows he's not there, but your heart sends you searching.

i'm so very sorry that this pain is so all encompassing - a loss at any point is horrific, but i think the later it gets, the more your subconscious struggles to deal with it. rather than just nasty dreams of what has happened, you have manifestations of what SHOULD have been happening. it not at all fair.

i wish i could suggest some way to help you but i'm clueless. i just wanted to send you big hugs and let you know that i'm thinking of you

take care

BG