Hi,

I'm hoping some of you can share your ideas. The EDD of my angel baby is 19 April and as it gets closer I find myself going backwards emotionally. The closer it gets the worse i get - feeling so angry and sorry for myself, constantly thinking we would be doing this or that by now if things were different.
I had a D&C and the hospital I had it at had an amazing group of older ladies that knit tiny little bonnets and booties and give you there along with a note acknowging the child you lost. I was so grateful for this at it meant my baby was real and gave me something tangible but i haven't been able to look at them since - I'm scared of the emotions that may come out if I do.

Do you think I should do something on the EDD of my baby - like finally get these out and look at them and allow myself to feel everything that involves? Or would this be making things worse? Is there something else I could do instead? Or do you think it would help to organise something totally unrelated to try and 'forget' just to get past that day?

How did you get through it?