Oh hun, big hugs Do what you feel is right for you, and listen to your heart. I felt much the same as you when Joshua's EDD was approaching, it was meant to be the most exciting day of my life. Even though he was only here on earth for 20 weeks, I wanted to acknowledge and celebrate his very short life because I felt blessed that he was here at all.
Take care hun, and know that your little angel is always with you wherever you go, always dancing in your heart.
Beata xxx