Hi

this is my first time on one of these sites, but I am just feeling so sad at the moment and I don't know who to turn to.

I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks and today was the EDD. I am home alone, my husband at a work Christmas Party. No-one has remembered that today was the day, just as no-one has asked me if I am okay or how I am coping since my return to Australia (about 2 months following the miscarriage). I so wanted to be pregnant again by today, but since I have had numerous infections following my miscarriage, we have only just started trying again.

I know that today was always going to be upsetting, but I don't know why I cant get over this - it has been 6 months already! My sister-in-law had a baby at the end of September and I will be meeting it for the first time at Christmas (my brother & his wife live in the Eastern States, so we do not see eachother very often) and I can hardly talk to her or anyone about my nephew without feeling like crying. I don't know how I will be able to cope with Christmas.

I know that other people have it worse than me and I know that there is now nothing to stop my husband and I trying again, but I still feel this over-whelming greif which I can't seem to cast aside.

Sorry, I just had to get that off my chest.