this is my first time on one of these sites, but I am just feeling so sad at the moment and I don't know who to turn to.
I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks and today was the EDD. I am home alone, my husband at a work Christmas Party. No-one has remembered that today was the day, just as no-one has asked me if I am okay or how I am coping since my return to Australia (about 2 months following the miscarriage). I so wanted to be pregnant again by today, but since I have had numerous infections following my miscarriage, we have only just started trying again.
I know that today was always going to be upsetting, but I don't know why I cant get over this - it has been 6 months already! My sister-in-law had a baby at the end of September and I will be meeting it for the first time at Christmas (my brother & his wife live in the Eastern States, so we do not see eachother very often) and I can hardly talk to her or anyone about my nephew without feeling like crying. I don't know how I will be able to cope with Christmas.
I know that other people have it worse than me and I know that there is now nothing to stop my husband and I trying again, but I still feel this over-whelming greif which I can't seem to cast aside.
Hi Cat, welcome to BB and I am so very sorry for your loss.
I haven't suffered such a loss myself, but I know there are some wonderful women on here who know your pain and grieve with you.
I am sorry no one has remembered the EDD of your angel, but I am glad you have popped in here - I really do hope you find the support you need.
I am not sure what to say about Christmas and your new nephew, other than I am sure your feelings really are so normal and of course they are valid and need to be felt. Don't be too hard on yourself - you are so entitled to grieve for your little one however you need to.
I think that's probably enough ramble from me. I am sure you will hear from someone who has been in a similar place to you before too long.
All the best, and stick around - this is a great place to be.
Hi and welcome to BB. So very sorry for the loss of your baby. Today is an especially sad day for you and I am sorry no one has remembered. Just take day by day because every day will be different but in time it will get easier. The pain of losing your angel will never go away but somehow we learn how to deal with that pain and it does get a little easier. Your precious angel will always be close to your heart.
Thinking of you today Cat....it is just so hard...and so lonely. I've never coped well with Christmas...seeing all my siblings with their young families...I have 'missed' two Christmases because I just couldn't do it and I've never regretted putting us first. Do what you need to do to get through each day and if that upset or offends anyone...so what? Nothing is going to be as bad as losing your baby...big hugs xxx
Cat for you. Even though you've come into this community under difficult, painful circumstances, I hope your journey here will bring support, comfort and hope.
EDD today & desperately sad
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