On Easter Sunday after spending the night in hospital with a suspected ectopic pregnancy I found out that I had a missed miscarriage, I was 10 wks and baby measured 8. I was sent home and then arranged to see my planned ob on the Tuesday, she was called away and that was changed to Wednesday where she planned a d&c for Friday. Thursday came and I miscarried myself at home, it was horrible and traumatic, the pain horrendous made worse knowing that there was no joy at the end. I still needed a d&c on Friday and ended up having to stay overnight due to complications with really low blood pressure. My parents visited from interstate on the Thursday arvo and left Sunday morning, husband went back to work that Sunday night too. Everyone around me returned to normal life and I was being pulled along physically with them. I wanted to talk about it with the few that knew but everybody avoided it or ignored it. My cries for help and support went unanswered and then a week and a half ago I hit rock bottom in a melt down when my BIL attacked me over something unrelated and uncalled for, it was the straw that broke the camels back and nobody could understand that. The arguments between my two sisters and mum went back and forward and I called it that I needed out, I didn't have the tools to deal with the situation anymore. All the little things that had built up over the years I had let out.

My parents think I'm grieving and "need help", I'm not denying I'm grieving but what I really just needed/need was support from them and my sisters. To not be forgotten about and expected to just return to a normal life before I was pregnant. My sisters haven't let me back in their lives because I told them I'm out because it was all too negative and I needed to escape it. I have tried to explain but they think it was just immature.

Has anyone else gone through a period of feeling alone, worthless and isolated? It has only been 1 month so I thought it would be quite normal to still grieve after only one month? Not to mention i was PMSing (for the first time ever) and getting ready for mothers day knowing i would never get to spend it with the little one i had lost. Since distancing and allowing it settle I actually feel much calmer and happier even though it hurts that they can't see it wasn't me when I broke down and said one thing wrong. So don't feel that I need therapy. How long did you take to feel normal again?

How long did you wait to try for another baby? I want to try again now but worry maybe I'm not emotionally healed enough. I get anxious that DD will be 4 soon and DH & I will be 32, it has been 7 months since we started focussing on trying and what if it happens again? For the first time I'm concerned the clock is ticking?

I realise this really long, for that I'm sorry. I'm just thankful I have this avenue to vent/write where people understand and I can be relatively anonymous. So thanks in advance.