Oh lovebourbon, I am so sorry to hear your news. No one should ever have to experience losing a baby if you ask me, it's not fair.
My thoughts are with you and your family.
Everyone reacts differently, but I found talking to people who had been through similar experiences to be the biggest help, so definitely know that we are all here for you whenever you want to vent. And whenever you are ready you can come and join all the very crazy and very special girls in the TTC after M/c and loss forum, even if you aren't going to TTC again for a while. They really are the best bunch of girls and it has helped me beyond belief.
Take care matey