Haven't really wanted to think about it at all.
2 weeks ago, I just had to watch my friend lose her baby.
I mean I took her to the hospital on Sunday night, called her husband, sat with him in emergency for hours, went back to their house -brought dinner, went home to relieve my husband looking after theirs and our little girls, stayed the night, took her to appointments all Monday, and waited for her on Tuesday morning after the D&C.

I have never NEVER felt so gutted in all my life. It was her 30th birthday weekend, so had to cancel all celebrations while all of this happened. And she had planned to tell her parents/in-law and family that weekend that she was pregnant and had to say "hi yeah, was pregnant, but just had a miscarriage".

She's handled the whole thing pretty much unreal, I went home and cried and cried with my husband. And boy did I treasure my little girl that night.

I'm horrified at the number of people on your angel's list, and just how often it seems to happen. I never want to get pregnant again!

How do you keep going? Do you want to remember the "products of conception" or "bloodclots" as a baby or is that too painful?

And what the bleeding f* is with ultrasound rooms having pictures of babies everywhere???? Not everyone is there for happy reasons. Has anyone else felt like that?

She says I was just perfect for her (tried so hard not cry my throat hurt for the next two days!!) which is great but - do we just go on from here? what happens next time she gets pregnant? (she's trying asap) do we get excited, hope against hope, remain neutral/non-emotional about it all?

I know everyone's different but ... what do you do??????

thanx - first time I've been able to unload about it, as no close friends really knew she was pregnant.