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thread: :( I think im here again

  1. #73
    Registered User

    Jul 2005
    Rural NSW
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    I'm so relieved you benefited from my post darl... to be honest I nearly deleted it... I don't often tell people what they should or shouldn't feel. I thought it might have sounded too harsh. However having been through such a similar experience and having started to walk down that path of not living in hope I guess i got a glimpse of that choice of pathway.... and it really felt to me that it was a path of continuing sadness, not relief and healing.

    This is your time for healing now. Surround yourself with things that will enhance your sense of renewal... I pray that you find some answers to why this is happening... and hope that we all can pass on some vibes of strength to help you start the journey again


  2. #74
    BellyBelly Life Subscriber & MPM

    Feb 2007
    Melbourne
    5,462

    Bathsheba's post is so right.

    Never give up hope. All our children deserve our hope for them, even the ones that couldn't stay for very long. They will always know that we never gave up hope for them .

  3. #75
    Registered User

    Oct 2007
    Gippsland, Victoria
    714

    Im so sorry sweets

  4. #76
    Registered User

    Oct 2006
    Sydney NSW
    4,837

    Bath's post was brilliant and expresses it better than I ever could (Bath- I have to spread the love)
    You are in our thoughts, be kind to yourself hun.

  5. #77
    Registered User

    Dec 2006
    Out of my mind. Back in five minutes...
    3,304

    so so sorry hun. xo

  6. #78
    Registered User

    Dec 2007
    Melbourne
    1,628

    I am so sorry.

  7. #79
    Registered User

    Jul 2006
    6,869

    Big hugs babe...im so sorry

  8. #80
    BellyBelly Member

    Dec 2007
    Belmont, Newcastle
    316

    Bec, I was sent many poems when Lilli passed away, this is one applys to any of one that has been pregnant. I hope your doc will give you answers, and plz know im here for you hunny.

    I THOUGHT OF YOU ALL I CLOSED MY EYES
    AND PRAYED TO GOD TODAY.
    I ASKED WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
    AND I KNOW I HEARD HIM SAY.
    A MOTHER HAS A BABY
    THIS WE KNOW IS TRUE.
    BUT GOD CAN YOU BE A MOTHER
    WHEN YOUR BABY?S NOT WITH YOU?
    YES YOU CAN HE REPLIED
    WITH CONFIDENCE IN HIS VOICE,
    I GIVE MANY WOMAN BABY?S
    WHEN THEY LEAVE IS NOT THEIR CHOICE.
    SOME I SEND FOR A LIFETIME
    AND OTHER?S FOR A DAY.
    AND SOME I SEND TO FEEL YOUR WOMB
    BUT THERE?S NO NEED TO STAY.
    I JUST DON?T UNDERSTAND THIS GOD
    I WANT MY BABY HERE!
    HE TOOK A BREATH AND CLEARED HIS THROAT
    AND THEN I SAW A TEAR.
    I WISH I COULD SHOW YOU
    WHAT YOUR CHILD IS DOING TODAY,
    IF YOU COULD SEE YOUR CHILD SMILE
    WITH OTHER CHILDREN AND SAY
    WE GO TO EARTH TO LEARN OUR LESSONS
    OF LOVE AND LIFE AND FEAR.
    MY MOMMY LOVED ME OH SO MUCH
    I GOT TO COME STRAIGHT HERE.
    I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE A MOM
    WHO HAD SO MUCH LOVE FOR ME
    I LEARNED MY LESSON VERY QUICK
    MY MOMMY SET ME FREE.
    I MISS MY MOMMY OH SO MUCH
    BUT I VISIT HER EACH DAY.
    WHEN SHE GOES TO SLEEP
    ON HER PILLOW?S WHERE I LAY.
    I STROKE HER HAIR AND KISS HER CHEEK
    AND WHISPER IN HER EAR.
    MOMMY DON?T BE SAD
    I?M YOUR BABY, I'M STILL HERE.?
    SO YOU SEE MY DEAR SWEET ONE
    YOUR CHILDREN ARE OK
    YOUR BABIES ARE HERE IN MY HOME
    AND THIS IS WHERE THEY?LL STAY
    THEY?LL WAIT FOR YOU WITH ME
    UNTIL YOUR LESSON IS THROUGH.
    AND ON THE DAY THAT YOU COME HOME
    THEY?LL BE AT THE GATES FOR YOU.
    SO NOW YOU SEE WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
    IT?S THE FEELING IN YOUR HEART.
    IT?S THE LOVE YOU HAD SO MUCH OF
    RIGHT FROM THE VERY START.
    THOUGH SOME ON EARTH MAY NOT REALIZE YOU ARE A MOTHER,
    UNTIL THEIR TIME IS DONE.
    THEY?LL BE UP HERE WITH ME ONE DAY
    AND KNOW YOU?RE THE BEST ONE!

  9. #81
    Registered User

    Oct 2007
    S/West Sydney
    1,794

    Oh... Its so sad. I wish i could stop people going throug hthis heart wrenching tragidy. My heart breaks that so many of us have Angels who left us too soon. I hope that you grieve this loss and take the time to gather yourself. I found releasing a white ballon into the sky and saying a few things helped me.

  10. #82
    Registered User

    Dec 2006
    Gippsland Vic
    1,686

    I really sorry that this had to happen again, unfortunately I know the feeling only to well. Maybe a little break will help, I personally found it difficult to stop trying after I got over the intial feelings of heartbreak, anger and disapointment, I found that everything I had wanted to try just one more time. I wish the very best for you.

    Rach that poem is beautiful, could'nt help crying.

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