:( I think im here again

[Bathsheba]

I'm so relieved you benefited from my post darl... to be honest I nearly deleted it... I don't often tell people what they should or shouldn't feel. I thought it might have sounded too harsh. However having been through such a similar experience and having started to walk down that path of not living in hope I guess i got a glimpse of that choice of pathway.... and it really felt to me that it was a path of continuing sadness, not relief and healing.

This is your time for healing now. Surround yourself with things that will enhance your sense of renewal... I pray that you find some answers to why this is happening... and hope that we all can pass on some vibes of strength to help you start the journey again

[~Trish~]

Bathsheba's post is so right.

Never give up hope. All our children deserve our hope for them, even the ones that couldn't stay for very long. They will always know that we never gave up hope for them .

[Madissun]

Im so sorry sweets

[mrsmac]

Bath's post was brilliant and expresses it better than I ever could (Bath- I have to spread the love)
You are in our thoughts, be kind to yourself hun.

[rufalina]

so so sorry hun. xo

[indie24]

I am so sorry.

[visitor1]

Big hugs babe...im so sorry

[rach2281]

Bec, I was sent many poems when Lilli passed away, this is one applys to any of one that has been pregnant. I hope your doc will give you answers, and plz know im here for you hunny.

I THOUGHT OF YOU ALL I CLOSED MY EYES
AND PRAYED TO GOD TODAY.
I ASKED WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
AND I KNOW I HEARD HIM SAY.
A MOTHER HAS A BABY
THIS WE KNOW IS TRUE.
BUT GOD CAN YOU BE A MOTHER
WHEN YOUR BABY?S NOT WITH YOU?
YES YOU CAN HE REPLIED
WITH CONFIDENCE IN HIS VOICE,
I GIVE MANY WOMAN BABY?S
WHEN THEY LEAVE IS NOT THEIR CHOICE.
SOME I SEND FOR A LIFETIME
AND OTHER?S FOR A DAY.
AND SOME I SEND TO FEEL YOUR WOMB
BUT THERE?S NO NEED TO STAY.
I JUST DON?T UNDERSTAND THIS GOD
I WANT MY BABY HERE!
HE TOOK A BREATH AND CLEARED HIS THROAT
AND THEN I SAW A TEAR.
I WISH I COULD SHOW YOU
WHAT YOUR CHILD IS DOING TODAY,
IF YOU COULD SEE YOUR CHILD SMILE
WITH OTHER CHILDREN AND SAY
WE GO TO EARTH TO LEARN OUR LESSONS
OF LOVE AND LIFE AND FEAR.
MY MOMMY LOVED ME OH SO MUCH
I GOT TO COME STRAIGHT HERE.
I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE A MOM
WHO HAD SO MUCH LOVE FOR ME
I LEARNED MY LESSON VERY QUICK
MY MOMMY SET ME FREE.
I MISS MY MOMMY OH SO MUCH
BUT I VISIT HER EACH DAY.
WHEN SHE GOES TO SLEEP
ON HER PILLOW?S WHERE I LAY.
I STROKE HER HAIR AND KISS HER CHEEK
AND WHISPER IN HER EAR.
MOMMY DON?T BE SAD
I?M YOUR BABY, I'M STILL HERE.?
SO YOU SEE MY DEAR SWEET ONE
YOUR CHILDREN ARE OK
YOUR BABIES ARE HERE IN MY HOME
AND THIS IS WHERE THEY?LL STAY
THEY?LL WAIT FOR YOU WITH ME
UNTIL YOUR LESSON IS THROUGH.
AND ON THE DAY THAT YOU COME HOME
THEY?LL BE AT THE GATES FOR YOU.
SO NOW YOU SEE WHAT MAKES A MOTHER
IT?S THE FEELING IN YOUR HEART.
IT?S THE LOVE YOU HAD SO MUCH OF
RIGHT FROM THE VERY START.
THOUGH SOME ON EARTH MAY NOT REALIZE YOU ARE A MOTHER,
UNTIL THEIR TIME IS DONE.
THEY?LL BE UP HERE WITH ME ONE DAY
AND KNOW YOU?RE THE BEST ONE!

[Je$$_84]

Oh... Its so sad. I wish i could stop people going throug hthis heart wrenching tragidy. My heart breaks that so many of us have Angels who left us too soon. I hope that you grieve this loss and take the time to gather yourself. I found releasing a white ballon into the sky and saying a few things helped me.

[blackduckies]

I really sorry that this had to happen again, unfortunately I know the feeling only to well. Maybe a little break will help, I personally found it difficult to stop trying after I got over the intial feelings of heartbreak, anger and disapointment, I found that everything I had wanted to try just one more time. I wish the very best for you.

Rach that poem is beautiful, could'nt help crying.