Helle

You did hug him. You hugged him and held him close each and every day he spent inside you. He heard every loving word you spoke to him, felt every wave of love you felt for him, absorbed every loving touch you sent to him. I am not sure of your beliefs but I think a body is just a vessel for something much less tangible. A body is almost symbolic of the soul that dwelled within. When we leave the earth and our soul leaves the body we take with us every feeling of love we ever felt. In this way, your little Jayvan's soul didnt need your physical touch on his body to know and understand the overwhelming love you felt for him. He knew that love. And he took it with him. There is nothing to feel guilty about.

Much love x

n2l
Thankyou. You made me cry all over again