just thought i would post in here, as it looks like i am in the middle of miscarrying my precious baby, sorry i have copy and pasted the following from my pregnancy announcement thread. mods can you please lock my pregnancy announcement thread thank you.


well i just want to once again thank everybody in the bb community for their happiness and concern for me.

it looks like my life has taken another turn for the worst. i have started bleeding today, i am absolutely guttered, i am 5wks and 1 day. i have rung the counsellor i spoke to yesterday and i am to go in to the royal womans hospital tommorrow morning for an ultrasound. but in my heart i know that this baby is leaving me, he will not become part of our lives but instead he has chosen to be with his big sister in heaven. i am absolutely guttered, my dh doesn't know i am bleeding yet, i will tell him tonight. i keep thinking maybe it is just a break through bleed but it seems to be to heavy for that. i guess is it any wonder the amount of stress i have been in the last few days certainly could not have helped.

i feel so empty, so useless and so like i just don't belong anywhere. where to from here, i guess it is a sign for me to stop wanting another child so badly and to continue on with this ****ty life i am living, oh i don't know anymore what to do i am so over it. feels like i am on the outside looking at someone else's life. what in the world have i done to deserve the pain and heartache i have had to endure over the last 10 years. my first ever pregnancy ended at 11wks (blighted ovum) 2nd pregnancy resulted in a beautiful daughter, whom was cruelly taken away at the age of 3 as a result of a brain tumour, i am thankful for my georgous 2 children who are with me my son (7) and my daughter 2 1/2) and now this my probably in all honesty my last chance at having another child - gone, ripped away from me.

it hurts like hell.

once again thank you to all the bb community, over the last few days you have given me strength to fight this with my dh, and also to get support over my grief and also to just offer the kind and wonderful words of encouragement.

thank you