Thank you so much for all your kind words and support. It means a lot. And I'm so sorry that so many have been through similar things.

I was actually quite proud of myself today, I held it together in the appointment and managed to get all the answers I needed. I am going in tomorrow for a d&c, we discussed other options but this seems the best thing to do. The remains will be tested and then cremated and put into a memorial garden at the hospital, or we can choose to have them back. I will talk to the midwives tomorrow about this, but I am happy that they are not discarded as medical waste.

I will be glad to get tomorrow behind me but will never forget this little baby that I will not get to hold.

I may see some of you in the LTTTC thread soon- I have been stalking you since I took a break (as I was getting a bit obsessive and crazy). Again thank you for your information and kind words.

xxx