Thanks everyone

DP is so upset and furious about the treatment or lack of treatment i recieved throughout this whole ordeal. His mum works at the hospital as a ward support and she came down to see us yesterday and he just about nearly burst into tears telling her how disgusted he is. While i agree i just don't want to say anything, i don't want to have tell people what happened and go through it again.

I told DP, and i guess myself last night that i am ok but im really not. I passed another bit of tissue and it just all came flooding back. I want my baby back i want to be pregnant still i want to be happy and excited to give DD a sibling. I keep stuffing up last night i said i needed to get my blood tests and then corrected myself and said no i dont because im not pregnant anymore. I had kept the big w baby sale catalogue as we were going to be laybying things but i let DD tear that up.

I'm glad DD is very young and didnt understand anything. She was great the whole time, i was hysterical right after it happened and she cuddled and kissed me. I am so blessed to have her.