The early days after loss are so hard. You are still in shock, trying to comprehend what has happened. Unfortunately reminders are everywhere. I lost my first Angel a year ago and I still tense up and feel a lump in my chest when I see my friend's baby who is the same age my Angel would have been. Its ok to feel overwhelmed right now, but the intensity of the grief will reduce over time.

As for the hospital treatment, maybe get your DP to explain it so you dont have to re-live it, unless you feel up to it.

Im sorry you are going through this too.