Well I had the D&C on Friday. The only time I could have it done was 6.30am and as we live in the mountains, that was a 4.45am start. I was really nervous and sad but everyone at the clinic was lovely - so kind and gentle, I feel v. lucky to have had such good care from them. My husband had to go to work so Mum came and sat with me then took me home and looked after me until DH was finished work. I was so grateful to have her with me - spent most of the day asleep. A bit sore and still bleeding, though lightly, but mostly just terribly terribly sad.

My sister in law said now is not the time to be philosophical - just to let myself grieve so I'm trying to just let myself sit with the pain and the loss. I'm finding it hard to have any company other than my husband - just want to be with him around the clock. He's being very patient I have two days more off work then it will be back to 'normal' except nothing feels very normal. I just wish we'd had more time with this little one - seems so quick to be all over. Feels like a dream except for the slow changes going on as my body goes back to not being pregnant. It is comforting to post here - thank you everyone.

Alice x