Well I had the D&C on Friday. The only time I could have it done was 6.30am and as we live in the mountains, that was a 4.45am start. I was really nervous and sad but everyone at the clinic was lovely - so kind and gentle, I feel v. lucky to have had such good care from them. My husband had to go to work so Mum came and sat with me then took me home and looked after me until DH was finished work. I was so grateful to have her with me - spent most of the day asleep. A bit sore and still bleeding, though lightly, but mostly just terribly terribly sad.
My sister in law said now is not the time to be philosophical - just to let myself grieve so I'm trying to just let myself sit with the pain and the loss. I'm finding it hard to have any company other than my husband - just want to be with him around the clock. He's being very patient I have two days more off work then it will be back to 'normal' except nothing feels very normal. I just wish we'd had more time with this little one - seems so quick to be all over. Feels like a dream except for the slow changes going on as my body goes back to not being pregnant. It is comforting to post here - thank you everyone.
hi lovely, just wanted to catch up & if I remember correctly today was your first day back too work? Hope it wasn't too hard for you & that you had the support there to make the day a little easier. I know it can be very difficult so . & I hope that each day it gets a little easier for you.
thanks Lissy, it's tomorrow. Sort of ready, sort of not - bit like going in for the D&C. At least I only have to do one day then I have Friday and the weekend to regroup and get ready for next week. Thanks for thinking of me - each day it's getting a bit easier.
Between getting the distinct urge to burst into tears a few times (very embarassing )& feeling completely 'spaced' out, it was a little difficult for me.
But ive been back for 3 days now & feel a little more at peace with it all. I have found that my perspective has changed a little, things that previously bugged me like crazy, I just couldn't be bothered getting upset about & some things people say I just think to myself 'Wow there are so much more important things in life to worry about than that!'.
Hopefully I haven't jinxed your first day back Alice.
Have things gotten any better with your friends that had been a little hard to talk to about your mc?
Ah, that's what is worrying me (distinct urge to burst into tears), although I've been a bit better yesterday and today.
Not really, she rang after the D&C which surprised me but that was it and most of this week I've just wanted to be on my own anyway. I think I'll leave things with her for a few weeks and maybe when I'm feeling better we can talk. What about your friend?
I did get a few texts from my friend regarding other things, but I am feeling a little like you & I'm not going to worry about it for now. I am really starting to look forward to my weekend though, a few days to rest sounds very nice right about now, lucky you with a long weekend.
Good Luck with work today alice. If you are able to, take mini breaks regularly, even if its to walk down the hall for a drink of water or something, i found it helped a little.
I have two days more off work then it will be back to 'normal' except nothing feels very normal. I just wish we'd had more time with this little one - seems so quick to be all over. Feels like a dream except for the slow changes going on as my body goes back to not being pregnant. It is comforting to post here - thank you everyone.
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