Miscarriage/Loss General Discussion #1

[forshelby]

Just sneaking in to say-

Telly, I remember the day I was sitting at my computer, feeling lost and all alone, and wishing I didn't have to be. That's when I changed my FB status to reflect my sadness over my mc. I remember thinking I didn't care anymore if people felt awkward or uncomfortable.......... I needed to make it known that I had a baby, and he/she mattered. And that's when we reconnected after how many years of non-contact? That's when I realised I wasn't alone, and that we share the same terrible sadness. From that day on, you've been such a special friend to me, I never thought we'd bond so much given the way we bickered in the good old days. I just want you to know that I second everything you're saying here. It's awful to have to hide your grief. It's awful to have to wear the fake happy face so others feel ok around you. If you want to scream it from the rooftops, I'll be right there holding your megaphone for you. You have 4 beautiful babies, some who just sadly couldn't stay here with us. I have everything crossed for your TTC journey. May it be a quick, sticky, healthy happy BFP for you. My heart still hurts for you every day. I want you to know that no matter how alone you might feel, as long as I'm around you never will be. And if you need someone to yell at, or punch, I'll be on the next flight home!

[Diamond Girl]

Hey girls, I thought I should join you here if its ok.

I just read through the last few pages and Im so sorry to hear about the terrible losses you have all endured.

Telly, your second last post really resonated with me. My close friend is due a week before my second angel was due (in Aug) and its been really, really hard seeing her get bigger while I went on to lose again. Its sad but it has affected our friendship a bit because she doesnt want me to feel hurt by seeing her, which is true because it does, but at the same time it would have been nice to have her stay close during this awful time for me.

[tellytubby]

Hello my beautiful friends

Just updating you all, I had my ob appointment yesterday, and I am so so glad I went. I am feeling a lot more confident on things. Turns out they tested my last angel to see if it had passed due to any major diseases or problems, which would result in further losses. Everything came back clear, just one of those unfortunate events. He talked a lot - about losses, hoe really there isn't anything you can do to prevent a miscarriage and not to blame yourself. My thyroid levels are normal (hooray!). We talked about the birth centre and if I would be accepted. Bfn on that one, due to my history with pretty major pph. But I think I'm okay with that. I'm craving for a bfp now! We kinda stopped trying, as I was nervous about the appointment, but am now more ready than ever.
I wasn't too sure if dh was as excited as me, but I just opened up the iPad and saw he's been googling the chinesse pregnancy calendars to see our genre prediction!! Omg that just made my day . But won't tell him I know, he likes to be the manly man of the house! Haha!

Love to all x

[Miss.September]

Telly, that's wonderful news, that everything is clear. And how gorgeous is your DH?! Love that! Got everything crossed for you that your BFP comes soon

Nothing much for me. In the midst of our "break", just living life and enjoying it

[Diamond Girl]

Great news Telly. Im glad you are ready to ttc again!

Pac - Glad to hear you are enjoying life right now.

AFM - I went and saw my obs on Thursday and he said my blood tests showed that I have a blood clotting disorder that he thinks have been causing my m/cs. To fix the issue I have to take asprin and clexane injections daily after I get my BFP. Im so excited now, for the first time in ages I feel like Ive got hope. DH and I started ttc last night so lets hope it brings me another bfp!