My Work is Painful Stuff

**~clover~** · March 20th, 2012, 11:14 AM

Lots of love & strength.

**MrsBexie** · March 20th, 2012, 11:25 AM

Lots of hugs sweetheart

**Tegam** · March 20th, 2012, 07:19 PM

May I ask why you have to wait? For uni to end?

The pains is alway the same for me, just that the time between those moments where you truly let yourself remember gets further apart....

I'm sorry your pain is so raw

**Shanti** · March 20th, 2012, 09:12 PM

I think it takes a very special person to do your job, I don't think I could. I know I couldn't

**Miss.B** · March 20th, 2012, 09:18 PM

Huge hugs hunni

**~TT40~** · March 20th, 2012, 10:17 PM

Massive hugs.

sent via my vortex manipulator!

**Ilithyia** · March 21st, 2012, 12:37 PM

Thanks everyone xx

May I ask why you have to wait? For uni to end?

The pains is alway the same for me, just that the time between those moments where you truly let yourself remember gets further apart....

I'm sorry your pain is so raw

Yeh because of Uni and because DP and I split.

Once I finish Uni this year I will go straight into a 12 month Grad program and I can't really be taking maternity leave whilst I'm in that.

So it will be at least another 2 years before I can try again. That fact hurts a lot.

**Kazzo** · March 21st, 2012, 12:42 PM

I think your a very strong women for doing what you do.

**Tegam** · March 21st, 2012, 01:17 PM

Bugger. But uni is a good choice to go first at the moment

I am sorry you and dp split. That doesn't help things.

How are your girls?

**Ilithyia** · May 11th, 2012, 12:41 PM

Having a tough time dealing with things today.

I'm on prac in Birth Suite at the moment and am catching and supporting women who are due the same date as Reid was due.

Gosh it hurts when with each baby I see born its a reality check that I dont get to hold Reid in my arms.

It the breastfeeding part that gets me the most.

Obviously I'm never rude or bitter anything like that towards these women and in all honesty the emotion of it isn't overcoming me, it just hurts.

I'm hiding in my room with the curtains drawn and a shyte load of chocolates today.