I kept having hopeful moments after u/s and BT confiemed I had a missed m/c. I kept thinking I have not bled yet, maybe, they are wrong, but then I knew the bub was too small for its age and no heart beat, the Bhcg test were falling. But deep down I also knew. I was booked in for D&C, as I wanted to start TTC again, and I didn't know how long it might be before I m/c naturally.
It is hard having to start again, I'm so sorry for your loss. But you will get through this and will one day have your bub to hold.