I had my first loss 3 months ago. I'm still not over it, i still have days where i just cry and cry, i too blame myself i blame my body i keep thinking "if i was more fit and healthy it wouldn't have happened" but really it happens for a reason nothing we did caused it

I found talking to other women who had been through the same made it easier to cope. What about a counsellor, could you try talking to one of them?