Hi Ladies
I feel kind of guilty posting in here given that you all seem to have endured so much more pain than me. One week ago we lost our baby at only 7 weeks. It was a horrible week. We found out we were expecting on the 21st Sept; blood tests with Dr the next day; appointment to go back to he Dr scheduled for the Monday following. On the Saturday morning though I woke feeling very ordinary and really crampy, then the bleeding started. I knew in my heart I was losing the baby. I did another HPT and it was still positive Saturday morning, however by Sunday night it was negative. That was the worst. I bawled my eyes out with my hubby and felt completely useless. Come the Monday I went off to the Dr who already knew that I would be (if I hadn't already) losing the baby as my bloods were indicating it was only at "blastocyst" stage, so nowhere near as developed as it should have been for 7 weeks.
Even when we did IVF years ago we did not have this happen as none of the treatments worked and so we never had a successful transfer. I have just never felt so hopeless and like a loser. I keep thinking positively - at least my body remembers how to be pregnant and so it might happen again. Plus we are both stoked with our DD (natural pregnancy completely out of the blue) and didn't ever expect to have her.
Sorry, I'm babbling. I guess I just keep thinking of the life that could have been. I would desparately love another child and hope this doesn't happen again. I admire all of you who have lived through this and worse and remain positive.
I guess I am just feeling a bit sad today one week on and had to get this off my chest. Sorry for rambling and this possibly doesn't make much sense. Thanks for reading though.