We Lost Our Twins

[Leyza]

Hello
I miscarried last Monday, 05-05-08. That same day at 2:30pm we found out that we were having twins. I had been given an appointment for the pregnancy clinic, just to have a check up due to some slight brown discharge I had been having. When we went in for the ultrasound, our first, we were so overjoyed when we found out I was carrying twins. We have three children already and this pregnancy was going to be our last to complete our family. So two babies was just such a blessing for us and so exciting. Unfortunantely that same evening I was rushed to emergency as I had began having cramps and started bleeding. It just got worse and worse. Just before midnight I had my second scan for the day, only to find out my two little ones had no heartbeats. It has been such a sad time for and my partner, we were so looking forward to welcoming our babies into the world at the end of the year. They were due on 25th November, which is my best friends birthday, so it was really special. It was so special having twins and we are grateful for the few hours we had knowing that I had two little bundles growing inside me. It just felt so cruel losing them the same day we found out about them.
. I was 11 weeks along and had to have a suction curette, the babies only measured 8-9weeks along. We knew this in the first ultrasound, but it is quite possible I conceived late in my cycle, as I keep a diary the times my partner and I are intimate. So i thought nothing of the inconsistency really. But it is really possible that they had just stopped growing and were in the process of passing when we found out about them. Nobody really has any answers for me.
We will try again and it's a strange feeling as we feel very strongly that we want to try again as soon as possible, my doctor has just recommended that I let my body heal and that the emotional part will probably take a bit longer. But she did say that it is a personal choice as to when to start trying again, and said that one cycle is generally enough.I am assuming this means I have to wait for AF to return and then we can try again after that. It is hard though as this pregnancy the timing just seemed so right, as it meant that I could continue uni next year, now if I fall again, uni is off the cards really. We are sick of waiting for right time, as we just had the perfect time and now the twins are gone. This was my first miscarriage after three healthy babies, I am just really sad this has happened, but it has made me realise how important my family is.
Thanks for listening

one cheeky monkey 18-01-01 ( Lottie)
one little princess 15-10-03 (Lily)
another cheeky monkey 12-05-05 (Oscar)

two beautiful little angels "B1 & B2" 05-05-08 (11 weeks m/c)

[rosehannah]

Leyza, I'm am so sorry for your lose, I hope you can find comfort in your loved ones. Best wishes for the future.

[Jaycee]

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, my heart goes out to you

[mako]

Leyza My heart goes out to you hun. Please take the time to grieve and heal and please be very kind to yourself. I hope you have lots of supportive people around you too. You have found a very supportive bunch of people here on BB

[ElleJay]

Oh hun, I'm so very sorry for you loss

[Where there's hope]

Dear Leyza

I am so sorry for your loss. I am still asking questions and it has been more than six weeks since I had my missed miscarriage. No words from anyone will take away the pain, but I have found the support on this website to be a positive start. Doctors seem to say to wait until after one (or even three) normal periods. My OB said to wait until I had had two. But every cycle is precious when you hit my age...

Please look after yourself and have lots of extra cuddles with your princess and two cheeky monkeys

[Leyza]

Hi
Thanks for all of your lovely comments. Part of the healing process for me is to let this out and talk about it with people that have been through similar situations. It makes it all feel so much more real. There are still people in my life that had no idea I was pregnant and it can be hard to interact with them, knowing that there is so much more going on for me at the moment. I have also found out that my Rubella immunity is low, so I have to have a booster and wait three months before trying again. I will do what my doctor advises, but I have be en looking around online about Rubella booster and pregnancy and some sites suggest only 28 days. I was wondering why there is this inconsistency? It just seems like a big difference in time lengths.

[Trish]

Leyza, I am sorry to hear of the loss of your precious babies.

Sorry that you had to find BellyBelly at such a sad time, but you will find a whole lot of supportive and loving people on here. Always ready to lend and ear (or eye) and a shoulder to cry on.

I too am low in rubella immunity. I only found out when I was pregnant with my last baby. Still haven't gone for the booster...

[MsPink]

Hi Leyza,

I just wanted to say how sad I am for you. I lost twins as well last year.

Take time to grieve. It's not something that goes away, but time does help.

Thinking of you..

[MistyFying]

Leyza I'm sorry for your loss

[~Kim~]

Leyza, how sad for the both of you.
I too recently suffered an 11 week loss, my doctor said the same thing about the cycles, and what you wrote about the timing - I could have written.
Do what feels right for you. My Ob was very true - none of the reaesrech was done on you - start when YOU feel ready.

[Inanna]

I am so sorry Leyza to hear of the loss of your babies. This is an incredibly sad sad time, the feeling of loss and also the strong desire to hold a warm baby in your arms.
You will find so much loving support here at Belly Belly.
Sending you love and warm hugs...

[AJC]

Leyza I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots and lots of .

You will find very good support in here.

[cheekyfrog]

I'm so very sorry to read of your loss of your twins, Leyza. I hope you're surrounded with all the support and love that you'll need at this time. Sending you big cyber hugs

Kerry

[Angel Babies 3]

I am so very sorry to read of theloss of your precious twins. I fully understand your pain.

Hugs and kind thoughts,
Debbie

[Nadine]

So sorry to hear about your losses

[csab]

I am so very very sorry for your loss, I wish there was something I could say to confort you and to make the pain go away.

[MeredithD]

Leyza - I am so sorry for the loss of your precious twins. How heartbreaking to have such joy and such pain all in one day. I lost twins only 6 weeks ago but it now hardly seems real that I was ever pg other than a constant nagging sadness and u/s pics.
I hope you are able to find some comfort here on BB.
Best of luck in bringing that final member into your family very soon.