We Lost Our Twins
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I miscarried last Monday, 05-05-08. That same day at 2:30pm we found out that we were having twins. I had been given an appointment for the pregnancy clinic, just to have a check up due to some slight brown discharge I had been having. When we went in for the ultrasound, our first, we were so overjoyed when we found out I was carrying twins. We have three children already and this pregnancy was going to be our last to complete our family. So two babies was just such a blessing for us and so exciting. Unfortunantely that same evening I was rushed to emergency as I had began having cramps and started bleeding. It just got worse and worse. Just before midnight I had my second scan for the day, only to find out my two little ones had no heartbeats. It has been such a sad time for and my partner, we were so looking forward to welcoming our babies into the world at the end of the year. They were due on 25th November, which is my best friends birthday, so it was really special. It was so special having twins and we are grateful for the few hours we had knowing that I had two little bundles growing inside me. It just felt so cruel losing them the same day we found out about them.
. I was 11 weeks along and had to have a suction curette, the babies only measured 8-9weeks along. We knew this in the first ultrasound, but it is quite possible I conceived late in my cycle, as I keep a diary the times my partner and I are intimate. So i thought nothing of the inconsistency really. But it is really possible that they had just stopped growing and were in the process of passing when we found out about them. Nobody really has any answers for me.
We will try again and it's a strange feeling as we feel very strongly that we want to try again as soon as possible, my doctor has just recommended that I let my body heal and that the emotional part will probably take a bit longer. But she did say that it is a personal choice as to when to start trying again, and said that one cycle is generally enough.I am assuming this means I have to wait for AF to return and then we can try again after that. It is hard though as this pregnancy the timing just seemed so right, as it meant that I could continue uni next year, now if I fall again, uni is off the cards really. We are sick of waiting for right time, as we just had the perfect time and now the twins are gone. This was my first miscarriage after three healthy babies, I am just really sad this has happened, but it has made me realise how important my family is.
Thanks for listening
one cheeky monkey 18-01-01 ( Lottie)
one little princess 15-10-03 (Lily)
another cheeky monkey 12-05-05 (Oscar)
two beautiful little angels "B1 & B2" 05-05-08 (11 weeks m/c)
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, I hope you can find comfort in your loved ones. Best wishes for the future.
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