I am just needing to debrief about this.

Admittedly I avoid this section of forum as much as possible but its the only place to turn to when these little things come up.

After Nikita died we used some money and bought a lovely antique cabinet to store all the "special" things. We always had the intention on putting her Urn in there but we've had it in the living room for over 3 years now.

It was there, people could see it, but I always felt it wasn't in "peoples faces" so to speak.

Anyway,

Recently I brought a cabinet for the same spot int he living room, something that has been needed for 6 years. Hubby was finishing what he needed to do to it so I could pop all the trinkets and photos etc up.

I asked him what he thought we should do with Nikita's urn because it s a low line unit and we don't plan on blocking it off from DD anymore and she likes to grap things and pull them down etc ... the last thing we want is to find those final ashes that didn't get scattered all over the floor.

DH decided it was time to move her urn into the cabinet in the other room because "it was a bit like a shrine" I told him that was ok and that I was still going to keep a photo of her in the living room because I don't want her put away and forgotten about.

Just after that I just burst into tears, I don't feel ready to move her out of sight. I have a lovely photo of her on the unit as well as a candle but its very, I dunno almost confronting, not having her there.

It sounds silly but I cannot feel upset by this decision. I am going to leave her int he Lounge on top of the cabinet and have set a few things up around it but it doesn't feel the same.

I just feel so sad .......

who would have thought that a little wooden box could mean so much and a simple shift could be so upsetting ...... its crazy!

OK so now I am just going to blame pregnancy hormones

Nae x