Big Hugs hun! My DD was born at 32 weeks and now is 3, which is a big difference but I do know what that roller coast ride feels like. Just remember that any decision is only yours to make don't feel pressured into anything after all you are Jake's mummy you will know what feels right and wrong. But I also know how it feels to be pressured by doctors and almost feel like your put in a corner but stand up for your son you are the only one that can. Best of luck sending you lots if strength. x