I really can't get over how similar our stories are. I had problems with my BP whilst pregnant ~ not to the stage of pre-eclampsia though~ in fact both times that I have been PG I have ended up on BP tablets. And like you we devised sneaky tactics to be able to hold our baby for longer, he was a fraction bigger than Elly. James was 3lb 13oz, so only just a bit bigger & was terrified of holding anything so tiny. Amazing how quickly we got over that fear though. Also used to love kangaroo cuddles with him & feeling him snuggle up against my skin!!