Vanita so wonderful to read your story. I understand the feeling that your baby isn't your baby. It is awfully hard to be sitting next to your baby & not being able to hold it whenever you want to, also heartbreaking to be going home at night & leaving them there. I found that hard to do too, just wanted to be with my little man ALL the time. But he is now 2 1/2yrs old & you would never know he was a premmie (1738g or 3lb13oz born at 32 weeks). Hope the twins are still going well.