O&g you haven't failed Jett at all, I had a 34weeker by emergency c sect, so I understand about no seeing them straight away. Dd was whisked away and all my family got to see her straight away or next morning but I had to wait for 12 hours before I cracked it and demanded to be let out if bed. I still resent that, even though I know she needed to be in the humidicrib.

You should be able to do more of the day to day stuff for Jett, as pp have said, washes, nappies and taking temps etc. Well done on the bf, getting the milk after a Premmie c sect is hard work, thank god for the milk bank, it wasn't around for us,

We are all here for you if you need to let it out, it's a hard thing to go through. Maybe write a diary to let out all the emotions, getting it all out really helps