Thanks girls for all your kind words. To be honest, when I'm not around her or my mum I'm kinda OK with it. But being with her is hard knowing what's going to happen But this time is special and just the other day she told me the story of her wedding day, which I'd never heard before. I found myself walking around her house looking at all her things wondering what would happen to it all once she was gone and her house was empty

I'm not sure what's happening with palliative care. I know that a palliative nurse has been coming to the house as has a community nurse. My mum and aunties are taking turns staying with her so she is not alone. As her condition worsens I guess they will need to make a decision about whether or not to keep her at home. My aunties and mum think she feels more secure when she's at the hospital, so it may be her choice to go into care permanently as time goes on.

Michelle, will PM you her name. Thank you

Well looks like my dream run with D's sleep has come to an end He has been shocking at night lately and now the last few days his sleeps have gone to pot too. DH is driving me nuts with it saying we have to 'fix it' because he's not 'going back there again' (ie the issues we had with DS1) I just want to scream when he says that!!!