Please, no judgement, I just need to de-brief as I'm feeling very alone right now.

It's 6.5 months, and Jazz is still breastfed. She's never had formula. She does have solids but mostly its booby or bust.

And I love it. I do, I love that I can continue to nourish her, she loves it, and it saves a lot of bottle hassles (Preparing, feeding, washing etc). Its just out and on with it, so easy. I demand feed, which I personally think is important so nothing something I am about to stop (ie. I don't think feeding schedules would work for us at all, and I'm not willing to try...).

But its irritating me.

Not physically.

But just the fact that she is attached to me, I feel so... I feel like such an object. Everyone treats me like a pacifier; as soon as Jazz cries they practically drop my top and attach her to my boobs themselves. Jazz wont take expressed milk at all, not in a bottle or a cup, so I feel like I'm just at her beck and call.
At night I feel like she's ALWAYS attached to me. We co-sleep (ok, sidecar but she ends up in our bed usually anyway) and I would need like a booby-chastidy belt to stop Jazz finding her way to them!

Every single day I say to Shel "I'm weaning her, she can have formula, I'm so sick of this".

Shel wont even let me go out for an hour by myself because she's scared of Jazz getting upset because all Shel has ever done was point her at my boobs, so I can't even go anywhere to have time by myself just in case Jazz gets upset.

Its not even that I want my body back. Its not that I want to separate from her, and I want her to have breast milk. I am so happy that I have been able to do this for her. And I want to keep doing it for her because I can. I don't really want to wean, a lot because it would be impossible, so I'm going to let her wean herself when she is ready.

I just get so irritated with being 'the boob'. Some days I dread picking her up because its like "oooooh, i smell milk!" and she goes for it. Through my shirt!!!! I can't even cuddle her without her snorting around.

Please tell me someone has been through this too?