I too have these fears, sometimes to the extreme as I have an anxiety disorder. I highly recommend some meditation. I am still in the process of trying to do it regularly, but it does calm the mind. I actually went to a counsellor at the hospital when I was pregnant with DS as I didnt know how I was going to cope with the anxiety of having three.
I was sent to Calmbirth classes mainly to learn relaxation. I have just bought a mediation cd and have got a cd headset thing to listen to it in bed. It really does help, although Im not sure the anxiety ever goes. Another thing is being VERY conscious of negative thoughts, and making them into positives. xo
I have all these awful visons of DS1 dying. I think it because he is going through a stage where he doesn't want to listen to or follow instructions. I keep imagining him running in front of a car or off a cliff or something else equally terrible.
Every now and then I worry about DS2 and SIDS, but I think too much of my energy is spent worrying about the big one who does things I can prevent that I don't get to worry about him as much. Poor neglected second child.
Ali,
I feel like I could have posted the same thing word for word...
I am so paraniod about DD and god, where does it stop?? I check her breathing AT LEAST 3 times per half hour nap, at night DP and I take turns... Then I worry about when she is older and goes out drinking... not to mention other things and I feel like I dont even want to say it aloud in case the universe hears me... OK I know Im sounding absolutely crazy...
I guess its good to know we arent alone in our fears... I wish I could not worry but then on the other hand you cant go around thinking the world is completely safe, because its not. Sorry Im typing gibberish.
Your not alone!
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